The last five years have been very trying. I remember as a child having these nightmares of large cylindrical thread like objects falling from a gray sky and trying to move out of the path to avoid being crushed. As an adult I’ve had dreams where I am running from something but not being able to run any faster than a certain speed. My feelings in these dreams is of a scared heart because I cannot quite outrun my purser.
\nI’ve lost a lot in my life. As an adult I’ve fallen victim to my own shortcomings and made some pretty horrific mistakes along the way. I grieve on a daily and struggle some days to accept myself. Despite these circumstances I remain happy and committed to becoming a new man. I’ve made great progress. There isn’t anything that can keep me from being myself regardless the hardships.
\nThe good in me exceeds the bad. I feed the good and try to pursue a spiritual reprieve daily. It’s become such a hole I’ve dug myself into that it’s difficult to make due, but I’m doing the damn thing.
\nToday I’m becoming a new man. Every day is an opportunity to be the person I esteem to be and refrain from the monster that dwells in darkness. I’m sober. Sobriety is my gift to the world. I’m forever remorseful for the things I’ve done to hurt others. Life is good. God is good. Amen.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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