{"id":2795,"date":"2015-06-08T18:50:58","date_gmt":"2015-06-08T22:50:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/?p=2795"},"modified":"2015-06-08T18:50:58","modified_gmt":"2015-06-08T22:50:58","slug":"standing-as-a-tree-in-the-storm","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/2015\/06\/08\/standing-as-a-tree-in-the-storm\/","title":{"rendered":"Standing as a Tree in the Storm"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Wow. Life is really hard these last few years. Struggling with sobriety, the loss of my son, family, more failed relationships and broken hearts, very little progress&#8230;<br \/>\nDespite these shortfalls I know they are not who I am. These are simply the terms of life as I live. I&#8217;ve made poor decisions and become tangled in the web of my own lies, my own problems, and I&#8217;ve dragged a few people I love very dearly through the mud, alienating myself on at least one occasion.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m suffering. I understand that&#8217;s mostly why I&#8217;ve messed things so badly. I&#8217;m hurting. I haven&#8217;t dealt with my issues well. My baggage has squandered the vitality and livelihood. I&#8217;ve fallen and fallen again every time I stood. This is a new day and I&#8217;m resolved to get out from under these weights. Emotional duress and the struggle to face my opposition. I stand firm against this storm. It will pass soon and I know there is a bright sun just beyond the night that has fallen dark on my soul. My heart still beats.<br \/>\nThis song by Deadmau5 always seems to be the right track when I feel like this. But, today it&#8217;s different because I&#8217;m finally understanding the tools I possess that will relieve the anguish that has been my life since childhood. I&#8217;m sober; no drink or marijuana. I&#8217;m refrained from the lusts of my flesh that only give birth to reprobate and\u00a0disturbed mind about\u00a0sex and intimacy. It&#8217;s remission, but what more can I ask for and pursue? So, there is great progress. I am no longer isolated. My environment is one that I thrive in. The weight of my burden is not too much to carry anymore.<br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 10pt\">Tree Before Storm by <a class=\"text_color\" href=\"http:\/\/www.publicdomainpictures.net\/browse-author.php?a=92019\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Michal\u00a0Spisak<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Wow. Life is really hard these last few years. Struggling with sobriety, the loss of my son, family, more failed relationships and broken hearts, very little progress&#8230; Despite these shortfalls I know they are not who I am. These are simply the terms of life as I live. I&#8217;ve made poor decisions and become tangled [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2796,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"video","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2795","post","type-post","status-publish","format-video","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-allowthepoetthis","post_format-post-format-video"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2795","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2795"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2795\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2796"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2795"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2795"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2795"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}