{"id":1341,"date":"2013-07-10T12:35:53","date_gmt":"2013-07-10T16:35:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/?p=1341"},"modified":"2013-07-10T12:35:53","modified_gmt":"2013-07-10T16:35:53","slug":"its-now-or-never","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/2013\/07\/10\/its-now-or-never\/","title":{"rendered":"It's now or never"},"content":{"rendered":"

Everything’s changing around me
\nAnd I want to change too
\nIt’s one thing I know
\nIt ain’t cool being no fool
\nI feel different today
\nI don’t know what else to say
\nBut Imma get my shit together
\nIt’s now or never<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Every time I hear this song I sing along. \u00a0I love it.<\/h2>\n

WILLINGNESS, HONESTY AND OPEN\u00a0MINDEDNESS ARE THE ESSENTIALS OF SPRITUAL WELLNESS. BUT THESE ARE\u00a0INDISPENSABLE.<\/p>\n

“There is a principle which is a bar against all informa- tion, which is proof against all arguments and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorance– that principle is contempt prior to investigation.” –HERBERT SPENCER<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Fear. \u00a0Always in my face. \u00a0I didn’t realize it wholly and I have yet to come to term with my fears. \u00a0The biggest obstacle in\u00a0getting my shit together<\/em> has been the fear of rejection. \u00a0I never saw it before really. \u00a0Things changed so frequently for me as a young person, always moving and meeting new people, trying to fit in. \u00a0It had a huge impact on the development of my identity. It didn’t help that I was also challenged with bi-polar ii.
\nFear and my survival nature poured into my young adulthood where I passed my GED, got a real job and met a girl. \u00a0I didn’t know what the hell I was doing. \u00a0I didn’t realize that my fear and a chip on my shoulder would become a total kill buzz. \u00a0I thought that once I stopped doing drugs, became a productive member of society, and moved into adulthood with a fresh slate things would be good. \u00a0I was beside myself when faced with who I didn’t know I was. The people closest to me, especially my former wife, were beside themself when faced with this person. \u00a0In no way do I believe I have anything “wrong” with me. \u00a0I have a little more to overcome than average and I don’t hinge on a simple mind.
\nMy spirit is getting stronger and my youth is only a reminder of what was. \u00a0I’m learning love, humility, and change. \u00a0<\/strong>
\nWhen I made the transition to a responsible twenty something I started to taste real life. \u00a0I met new people and made new friends. \u00a0I had my first real relationship and my second became a marriage. \u00a0I learned I was highly capable of learning new things and excelling at all I put my mind to. \u00a0Despite pink clouds and a new life, I still had to deal with a childhood of lost opportunity and abandonment. \u00a0Romantic relationships that became serious became unhealthy. \u00a0I didn’t know how to deal with myself \u00a0and when that fear started creeping out the significant other wasn’t prepared.
\nRejection perceived is a threat. \u00a0Rejection received is death. \u00a0Obviously no two people run into relationship conflict where the responsibility lies solely on one party. \u00a0 Often I have thought that if this or that was different about a person things would work, but that’s not how it works. \u00a0When I reject someone or something it’s often out of fear. \u00a0The receiving end reacts out of fear with an equal force of rejection and communication is broken…
\nWhen I am afraid of rejection I act in a manner to reject what I am afraid of being rejected by. \u00a0This manner or reaction to my fear will always lead to \u00a0rejection of or by something and\/or someone. \u00a0<\/strong>
\nWe were not given the spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind. \u00a0If I humbly offer myself to God and unreservedly give up my will into His hands I don’t ever have to suffer that fear. \u00a0When I ruthlessly face my sin and allow God the doer to work through me I never have to entertain the spirit of fear. \u00a0I never have to reject or feel rejected.
\nHumility ONLY comes through humiliation.<\/strong>
\nA sober mind has nothing to do with drugs or alcohol. \u00a0Sobriety is about a spiritual place of wellness. \u00a0The only way to a healthy God consciousness is through humility. \u00a0Trust in God, forgiveness, helping others. \u00a0These alone are steps to a sober mind and way of living. \u00a0It’s the only way to happiness. \u00a0Drinking and drugging have nothing to do with it except that these are symptoms of a sick person. \u00a0Everyone suffers from spiritual sickness, some more than others. \u00a0Pity those who will never have to face theirs in this life and don’t think those who show no signs are an exception. \u00a0No one is perfect and made whole in this life but through God we can work with others and learn to give of ourselves. \u00a0Humans working in the field as spiritual medics. \u00a0You can’t stand up unless you get knocked off your feet.<\/em>
\nIt’s now or never.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Everything’s changing around me And I want to change too It’s one thing I know It ain’t cool being no fool I feel different today I don’t know what else to say But Imma get my shit together It’s now or never Every time I hear this song I sing along. \u00a0I love it. WILLINGNESS, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":796,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"video","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1341","post","type-post","status-publish","format-video","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-allowthepoetthis","post_format-post-format-video"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1341","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1341"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1341\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/796"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1341"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1341"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jarodthornton.com\/bemis3lf\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1341"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}